it's 9am in the morning. i can't sleep well. i slept at 3am last night. sighhh* everything went wrong. i just breakdown into tears badly yesterday. i guess i just cried everything out. i just cry to vent all my frustrations. i realised that i can no longer tolerate. i don't wish to talk about that incident. it happened once and it's happening again. so many problems inside me and i did not say them out, i can only cry. all the heartaches make those tears well up too. i've really got too much heartaches. too much that my heart hurts physically! i'm really in pain, it really hurts a lot. and you know what? i really love him. i've never loved so badly and madly too. this love is killing me but yet i want to continue. everyone has been telling me not to give up. is this a hope that i'm suppose to pursue and believe in? ): it's a love so true. a feeling that i've never had before. a man that i'm willing to love and put aside all my so-called-clara's principles. this sacrificial love is worth it if it produces fruit. i just love you :'(


thanks to those who was there to console me throughout the night till 3am. even though it wasn't for that issue, i really appreciate it. thanks for giving me the encouragement and listening ear when i really needed one. you people are really important to me. unknowingly, you people have became a part of my life now. i love you guys totally!